Wow, this is my first update in a while. So it's about a month into second semester and here is what I've learned so far: Small town people are the best, Arnlod Schwarzenneger is the man, drinking with the friends you love can be great fun, and that things change. A year ago things wer so much more innocent. Everyday after school I would halfass my homework, maybe watch a little tv, and spend time with my favorite people. Last summer was the greatest time in my life. We just moved to a beautiful area of Chicago, I get free money for not working....It was a orgy of relaxation and hapiness. I guess I knew I wouldn't have talked to or seen my best friends as much as I usually do or would have liked to, but when spending the last precious moments of a waning summer with Brad, Bill, Dave, Badi, Mike, and Morgan...I took it for granted. I never knew that life could change so much in college. All the drama of high school, the pressure of homework, loneliness, stress, and especially emotions are amplified to a chaotic scale. Lately, everything is confusing. One moment i'll be on a complete high of joyousness, and the next minute I'll feel terribly sad, forgotten, and almost depressed....and the thing that confuses me the most is that I have no good reason to. Sure, there are a few things in my life that could stand to be better and require a little fixing, but there is nothing, and no combination of things, cohesive enough to make me feel like this. I only regularly talk to and think about one person from my high school friends, and now I'm confused if that's going to continue. High School was not my scene, but the conception and feeling that every senior has about college being the greatest moment in their life but, no matter how many of college days live up to our hopes and wishes, their will be some times of intense soul searching and severe emotions. Sometimes every feeling, jealousy, hatred, love, insecurity, doubt, fear, and concern mix themselves into one giant, sweating stew of...I don't even know what. It takes you by surprise and as soon as you think you know what your feeling, everything changes and you smile again, a smile as fleeting as the feeling beforehand. So to everyone: Thank you so far, whether I've known you for a week or 10 years, it's been great so far and, if we fade away, I hope to see you down the road, so you can bring a smile to my face. Rock over London, Rock on Chicago.